Seeing the time flies, makes me wonder life without him would it be as fast?
I really can't imagine.
Sometimes I hope God let me meets him after he completed his NS.
It's a hope that will never happen.
I rather be unemployed than leaving him alone and worry his NS things.
It's the government that I hate and not the laws.
They're the ones that came up with this something so stupid to protect country when people saying the 2 years are just a waste of time.
Sometimes I just hope Singapore merged with some countries that make NS isn't compulsory for guys.
It's gonna be a EMOTIONAL 2 years for me.
My plan for that 2 years-
Baby's 1st year NS :
I will work hard and save up money for course that I intend to take in private school.
Baby's 2nd year NS :
I'll take up the professional certificate for the course THEN proceed to DIPLOMA.
After those 2 years, I'll consider if I gonna continue Uni.
I have never thought of going Uni because I feel that it's waste of time and money.
By the time I complete Uni, I guess I will take more time to earn back the school fees that I'd paid isn't it? That's how I feel. I promise I will wait for Baby. It's a promise I hope and pray I'll never break it. It's a disappointment that he doesn't really hope that I'll wait for him though. Maybe because of the past experiences shown on tv? I hope I'll be the girl for him seriously. I love him more than anyone that loves him. I do threw temper at him but I tried to change for him. Which I dont know if he thinks I did? It's gonna be really wordy for this post. Because before he even go NS, I've become really EMO over it. I've very little friends to share with. I usually only pour out my feelings to him. Otherwise, I'll just keep the problems inside my heart. Sometimes I even keep the problems to myself and not telling him. I've been so used to going hee hee ha ha with him for past 2 years and months and all of a sudden you expect me to get use to him only with me for like few days? I can't possibly keep him with me all the time during his free time. It's his choice to keep who accompanied. But I guess I need some time to learn to be independent.
I am crying so much when I'm typing this post.
Baby, I will work hard for our future. Studying, working together has been in my mind all the time. I just wish to spend as much time for him as possible. I realised I've been neglecting my mum because of him. But she's working all the time except during her off days? Today is the day that I'll accompany my cute little mother xDD
I hope baby's brother would be fine soon. Though he's really very GL and funny at times.
I had a weird dream today ><
I dreamt that I going to marry Baby the next day and it's like I tell my mother about I'm marrying him yet mum don't believe me. Then no relatives from my side attend my wedding. I feel so embarrassed. Then i woke up ><
Something that I really need to SAY OUT!
I MISS YOU VERY VERY MUCH perhaps that's the reason for that weird dream. O.O
I NEED A JOB BADLY WITH BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GRRR.
Alright, that's all for the wordy post today.
